Going offline after 10 years...
At least for now... I'll be back, probably....
I’m Kat.
My astrology is Leo Sun, Libran Moon & Gemini rising.
My Human design being a 2/4 Emotional generator
If you’re into those things.
More importantly, I’m a multidimensional woman with a thousand faces, passions, secret interests and not so secret interests.
I believe motherhood is one of the deepest spiritual and emotional journeys a woman goes on. One of the most sacred rites of passage there is and one that happens without a lot of awareness or education.
I believe motherhood, sensuality, mothering creative children, feeling alive in our bodies, all goes hand in hand. Our inner deaths and rebirths are the creative pulse that shapes our families and as mothers we are the anchor points for the home.
I believe our children initiate us into integrating our shadows and liberating our joy in life - if we allow it.
I believe that all the personal growth, self helpy stuff really doesn’t need to be so deep and serious. Like of course it can be - We are spiritual in nature, But to simplify it all by just having fun, laughing often, and twerking when we get the chance is enough. Self inquiry is important but never to the point of being dogmatic, or rigid in our experience of life. I vouch for staying curious and staying fluid in our identity if possible - It allows for more magic.
Many things excite me, and I expect i’ll pursue a lot of different endeavours in this lifetime…
Some of those being
Poetry,
Facilitating community spaces/ events
Dancing to a really good beat, barefoot, in the jungle, with a lot of people around.
natural building, earth/cob house design.
Childhood education through life schooling/ unschooling and educating through experience over textbooks
Intimate relationships, friendships, community, the human experience but together.
Birth, motherhood, parenthood, Spirit babies, Conscious conception, pregnancy and beyond.
Entrepreneurial pursuits, money, wealth, creative ideas, energetic blueprints of business
Cultivating atmospheres through our energetic environments (being somewhat of a sensualist, visual aesthetics, smells, sounds, feelings of a space are so important to me and I find it interesting to explore the energetics of a home/ event/ experience)
Kinesiology.
and more…
Some pivotal moments of my life being….
I was raised as the eldest of 7 kids, between a little farm hidden in the valleys of South Western Australia, filled with stunning eucalyptus trees, kangaroos and my pet lamb, rats, dog, and geese…. and on the Cocos Keeling Islands, lost somewhere in the Indian ocean with white sand up to the front doors of the beach shacks, crystal blue water, coconut replaced the blood moving around our body… and the pet geese became pet hermit crabs.
My mother sent me to “the Journey” - a very spiritual two day workshop when I was 9 years old. That was the first time I remember experiencing passing balls of energy to others, burning fears after walking through a spiral, and creating a practice to nurture my intuition.
I remember at 14, working in my dads mandarin orchard on the farm. He’d pay me $3 a kg of mandarins picked by hand. Every day after school I’d go and pick, and before long I’d made $500 so that I could attend an intuitive training in the city where I was walking women through past life regressions, and many other experiences I can barely explain.
At 15, & 16 I traveled to Bali alone with my little brother to attend a summer camp on a scholarship. 50 kids from around the world all meeting at the green school in bali & cultivating team building skills, developing self leadership skills, and expanding creativity and the ability to be innovative with thought and the expression of that in the world.
I share those 3 moments because they felt really pivotal for me in my younger years and changed the course of my life.
Other key moments being
Witnessing my smallest sister be born. I was 14. I had begged mum for months to let me be at the birth. The morning she went into labour she invited me to come and I had possibly never been more excited in my entire life.
Beginning a Network Marketing business when I was almost 17, which lead me to be able to purchase a $54,000 motorhome with an ex boyfriend of mine & travel across Australia hosting events & speaking at gigs. This company is also where I met my now husband Tully.
Moving to Bali at 18, and going from the hustle into deep receptivity for the first time since I was a child. Meeting myself properly, and spending most of my waking moments in a hot sweaty mess on the jungle dance floor, or at cafe’s with beautiful people.
Falling in Love with Tully, and the first 12 months of our relationship… like an inferno. Super quick, Super intense, and very transformative.
Hosting Couples Retreats in the South West of Australia, and moving the retreats into an Online program for couples. Over the years we worked with hundreds of couples through 1:1 work, retreats, our online program and speaking publicly.
It was a very fulfilling and fun career and one I still hold passion for though in the depth of early motherhood right now.
Deciding I was, in fact, a writer, an artist, a community creator and a home maker, and that all of those things were beyond valid ways to spend my time and energy.
Being invited into the birth space of two of my friends births and watching my two godsons be born, and witnessing my two friends become mothers.
The night I went into labour with Rafi, having hours of healing conversations with my mother, and feeling generations of dissonance dissolve from my body from the matriarchal line. A conversation I knew had to happen before I became a mother. 8 hours later my waters broke.
My own unmedicated home birth with my son Rafi in 2020. About 8 hours of labor, born in the mid morning light streaming through our home. A day I had dreamt about for years.
And I’m sure many more pivotal moments that will be revealed
I’m starting Substack because I’ve been on social media for 14 years now. And 10 of those years have been dedicated to showing up consistently in the online space, sharing my life, often oversharing haha! and Over time learning my relationship with the social media space, and my boundaries, privacy, openness, connection to others etc. I’ve even run workshops on soulful social media due to loving what it has to offer if used in a soulful way.
Though I feel like I’ve used social media as a space to self explore, and know myself through the feedback of that world…. Right now, I’m craving to know myself outside of it. I’ve had patches in my life where it’s not been at the forefront, but naturally, having a business solely based online, having beautiful community, and also feeling really received and held in the online space when sharing my art, writing and musings… naturally it held weight in my every day life.
What feels really important to me is to experience life without it for a while. Where I’m not capturing the video, where i’m not responding to the messages, and where I’m not using instagram to even search a cafe before we go.
I’m craving a depth from myself that I remember having, but it’s not as present right now. I want to feel a connectedness to my life, a full receiving of my life…
And though I absolutely have moments where it all feels that way, there are also many times I find myself avoiding feelings, avoiding presence, and feeling uncomfortable in fully opening my heart to whats around me - which can also include my Husband Tully & son Rafi.
I crave more depth than a instagram caption or a reel can provide. I want long end writing, that you can sit with a cup of tea and consume at your own pace. I crave creating slower, more mindfully, and putting things out to people who really want to receive it.
When I feel into my dream life - most of what flashes before my eyes is feeling in sync with the days. Rising with the sun, and having slow candlelit evenings with music and presence with Tully. It’s feeling connected to nature and music, and art. Feeling inspired to write daily, and actually having the time to because I’m not sucked into a reel wormhole.
I also see myself completely connected to my own unique vision of my life, rather than a compilation of what I think I want based on subliminal messaging of the online space. I have days of clarity and days of confusion.
But most of all, I just want to be so damn available to the things and people I love. I want to say “YES I HAVE TIME” to connect and have coffee dates, to cook meals for friends who’ve just had babies… to learn how to make sourdough for my family fresh every morning… to feel apart of a community ecosystem, to write and paint and pick flowers with Rafi. To dance and make love and to simply sit in silence in enjoyment. To have the menal space without any build up of overwhelm to really reflect on my personal values, and what I really want to do and create and express into this world.
So if you’re here to read my musings, thank you. What some of you may not know is that I’ve actually written an Unpublished book. I’m hoping that with this time offline, my energy re-sparks for it and I can have it finished.
I also have a Podcast called Mother Maker - it’s for the mother creatives who intuitively make and create alongside motherhood.
I’m excited to keep this space here alive for those wanting to follow along with my personal processes and my ideas on motherhood and beyond.
Thank you for supporting my art in this way and being apart of my online community.
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