I had regrets about getting married so young

But now I don't & here's why

I’ll admit, 

Getting married young meant that there was many parts of myself I was yet to know. Though I’d likely say that if I got married at 40 too because we are ever changing,

I definitely got married way younger than I had ever thought I would. 

I was 22. Engaged at 21.

I’m grateful for my relationship to my intuition back then because even though there was fear for me, there was a whisper of “yes, keep going” and so I did. 

I was scared I was too young. Scared I was too naive to make a decision so big. 

Did I know myself enough to even know what I wanted in a relationship? Let alone a marriage? Did I know Tully well enough? We hadn’t moved through many life seasons together. How would I know if this could work?

Had I gone and experienced everything I had wanted to before this time of my life?

It all honestly felt really soon. 

Tully is 7 years older than me. He knew what he was looking for and to be honest most of me at 21 couldn’t believe that I was it. I was the woman he had been looking for, especially when there were moments I still felt like a girl. Though overall I didn’t feel like I thought I would at 21. Most of my friends were a lot older and I found that my interests, and conversations were definitely “Older” than I was. I had been in the world of personal development, business and entrepreneurship for almost 5 years at this point, and so there was a level of internal perspective that gave me confidence with my choices. 

My biggest concern was that I didn’t know if I had “lived enough” of my experiences to “settle down”. 

What If I wanted to be with women, or not be monogamous, or what if I wanted to travel for years solo? What did this mean if I married THIS man that I loved?