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This is a beautiful piece to read this morning. Sitting in my art room with coffee and classical music. I've been contemplating removing myself from social media for a time. And letting myself feel into the space it would leave me with in so many moments. I feel the habit formed with it not actually feeding me but taking me away from being more present in real life.

I love the piece around your questioning the cloudyiness/clarity of your own body when consuming others lives. Whether or not the dreaming visions are fully your own or if they are made up of mini moments you feel drawn to about others lives. Or the micro guilt going unnoticed in the moment of scrolling but settling into the body. I so resonate with that. And celebrate you with those turning into micro freedoms. I also love the noticing of your openness in your body and the time it took you to relax into your body for pleasure to be present with your husband. I feel that. And don't know that I fully articulated that in the moments when I'm having a hard time connecting or feeling good while trying to connect that my nervous system isn't settled enough for me to receive. Beautiful realization.

I love the invitation to share mini wins. Mine in the most recent moments would be - - - staying home from a friends show and choosing to rest. Being able to wake up in the early early morning and make love to my partner while listening to heavy rain fall. because I got such good sleep! A slow breakfast morning. Roasting squash for lunch later. Reading this. Inviting my daughter into my art room so she can sew at my desk while I draw pastels. Looking into canning for apple butter recipes to turn our box of fruit from market into yummy spreads to share in colder months. Inviting my sister over who struggles with mental health for a slow day of tea and art. Actually spending time with my family with my phone in another room. Saying yes to seeing friends when it feels natural and easeful. Nourishing my body. For me. And being ok with not needing anyone else to see my moments of growth or success.

Looking forward to reading your writings as they come.

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Thank you for such a reply! Also can I join in your art room with classical music and coffee. That actually sounds so blissful 😻 thank you for sharing your realisations and also celebrating you in your beautiful wins!!! 🎉🎉

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I love your words and I relate so much to them! I need so much time to get "in the mood" and often I rather scroll on Instagram than to relax and "do it" with my husband. Which makes me sad if I'm honest. And maybe I feel a little guilty for me and my husband, too. I hope you know what I mean. Maybe I should try to leave Instagram for a while too, and discover other more relaxing ways to slow down after a day alone with my toddler. Can't wait for more of this Kat x

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Can relate. Phones suck life force. So even though they are An amazing tool... I’m finding my lifeforce being more available for me because I’m doing thing in my life (even something as simple as being proactive with the dishes, instead of avoiding for later and instead being on the socials.:.. is having me feel more alive.) but I can sooo understand the desire to just check out and scroll after busy days with kids/ feeling tired.

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Also - fuck yeah to shower sex!

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The most important part haha

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OOOOF I love this Kat!! The massive shifts that come with removing something that was nourishing, but not as nourishing as perhaps being without it for a while.

Thank you for sharing!!

Subtle wins in my life right now - keeping up with dishes/washing, removing stuff from our home that we don't need/use, deleting socials over the weekend, having Cam bring in pancakes this morning, helping my folks move, rearranging the lounge, having more of a routine around chores, cooking, baking for Cam. Simple stuff, but shit it's nourishing. Love ya!!

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I like the way you put it just then - Removing something nourishing, but not as nourishing as being without it for a while. I feel that. YAY for your beautiful and important subtle wins xxx

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Holy shit I so relate to these micro guilts!!!!! Thank you so much for the windy journey - I love the scenic route ❤️

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The scenic route.... i like that. Thank you for walking it with me xxxx

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Ooh I didn’t realise how much I needed to read this when I started it. Thank you for sharing it again!!

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Thank you for taking the time to come read xxx

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I really enjoyed reading through this. I'll have to take a moment to pause and sit with what it has brought up in me. Social media has become such a time and energy suck and I know I need to re-evaluate.

I love how you put it plainly that manifestation is most effective when you have body and mind knowledge, and that you can't experience a turned on and in the moment life if you're feeling those micro guilts... which merge to a big guilt.

Thank you for sharing.

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Thank you for taking the time to read & share where you’re at! Xx

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deeply feeling the call to step offline for a season and inspired by your musings. i scroll so much so often and i know it’s to dissociate. how would i spend my free time if IG was not there to fill the void? do i dive in deep or dip a toe? here i go, why not just shut it off??

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Ahhhh girl this is so, so epic. Music-like to my ears. I too have been spacing myself with insta expectations! I think though, I need another break. I'm going away, alone for the first time in 2 years next week. I plan to read & write a lot... and switch off from socials then! I cannot wait to see what comes from my experience x

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Omg how bliss that will be! Have the actual best time 🥲🥰🥰🥰🥰

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You are so wonderful. I appreciate your raw honesty 💖

Big freedom for me this week was hoola hooping at the skate park whilst my partners daughter was scooting around. Teaching her about courage after a big fall and watching my partner stack it in front of us too. It was a humble moment full of lessons and open hearts.

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Oh beautiful wins! Thank you for sharing xx

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Beautifully and powerfully written Kat.

I can also feel my nervous system unwinding simply by reading words in such a “real time” conversational format. It feels like much of the online world is very edited and curated to fit in micro moments (of course to snatch and grab attention) and this feels very real, raw and refreshing.

I also very much resonate with the micro guilts. I think a social media break is on the cards now. Thanks for the inspiration, in more ways than one ❤️

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How interesting is that. Like just reading long writing, and like you said "real time" writing is somewhat relaxing to the nervous system.... Even for me seeing so many "long responses/real time responses" feels so nourishing. Like I guess on social media its so normal for a comment to be a few emojis or a sentence or two. I'm looking at the responses here and it actually feels like a conversation. So sexy.

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Wow super powerful share. Thank you! Relate so much, and have been feeling the call to take more time away from social media. I haven't figured out a way that works for me yet but this post has given me so much to think about so thank you so much! 🙌🏼💜

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Thank you for reading ❤️ in the past I’ve found weekends offline to feel great.

And for a while Tul and I would put phones away a day a week but started at midday on one day and went until midday the next. Mainly because we had work we needed to do daily online so it allowed space for daily work (in the morning on the first day and afternoon of the second) and still a full 24 hours with no screen/blue light/distraction

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Great idea! Thanks for sharing 🙌🏼💜

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Really beautifully written Kat. I think you’ll really find this time refreshing off the socials. Enjoy it! A small win for me has been writing my book A Love She Deserves and pouring my heart into it since May this year. It’s almost finished, yay! It feels like a super inward journey & like it will take a long while for the world to know about my book, but I’m going to put it out there as much as possible. So the win for me is actually getting to the point of finishing a big project that I’m proud of. Nih x

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Yay! Big deal!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉 I’m excited to read it one day xx

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Oooooh I’m loving this so much and can relate sooooo much! I’m curious... as you mention being a generator... have you got an open inspiration centre? I have and I relate sooooo much to what you said about when you came way from socials you returned back to YOUR visions instead of all the energy from everyone else on IG!! I have found I have to have regular pauses to realign back to my visions rather than the world around me!!! Xx

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Mmm I’ll have to check! It’s so interesting huh!

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Just found my way here and so happy to get to read longer stuff from you (and stuff from you in general). And so much of what you write resonates. I believe when the time is right I’ll move into here as well. I have such a back and forth relationship to instagram, but recently I’ve felt like being witnessed and seen, daring to speak more of my heart there, is aligned right now (as I experience a lot of under sharing etc). But also totally recognize lots of the patterns you’re describing. And also LOVE to flow with longer writing. Curious to see what’s ahead. 🙏

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Ahhh... loved reading this friend. I can feel the deep exhalation in my bones! and can't fully relate to a lot you wrote about.

I'm in a position now, where 95% of my business is drummed up through Instagram, and I am working hard to change this- pushing the Google Reviews so I can be found through the big World Wide Web instead ... but it's a tricky one.

I love directing people to other places to connect with me, I've set up a little YouTube channel to share my (personal) video work, set up a little blog on my website that I tried for a while, and now I've set up Flodesk to do a little newsletter instead, which feels more personal... and people will only subscribe if they want to! It feels lovely to connect with you here... and thanks for not dissapearing completely. Love to you xxxx

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Ahhh totally hear you. Social media is a great tool especially if it’s helping you thrive more financially.

Good job diversifying too!! 😍😍😍😍

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